Nice lunch, handmade aglio olio by the awesome chef! <3

Had a small chat with sis over lunch today and I realise we have the sane problem. We view life in a rather pathetic way. We feel unsatisfied with life, being so routine and somewhat boring for us. I bear thoughts like this every now and then, but sometimes I do managed to self motivate by attempting to look at things from another angle.

Money, at many instances, become my source of motivation. I feel restricted with limited wealth. I want to own things that I like, do things that sadly, require money. but at the same time, I’m anti-bimbo, anti-princess. I want to work for things, though it’s sometime good to have things falling from the sky ( just like how the growth dividend fell right into my account). Generally, I don’t just want material stuff, I want a sense of satisfaction. Putting in effort and eventually getting the desired outcome seem more of a joy too me.

Time and again, we might feel that life is getting mundane. However, if we view every step that we take, be it a temp job, an internship, working with ppl you don’t really like, as experiences which can bring us further, every step becomes valuable. Think abt it, stepping out of our comfort zone may bring us new surprises in life!

Ok, I’ve reached my destination! Suntec city! Time to study for my final uni exams!

yes, used to. not as humsum now ):

hope he gains some weight soon and get back the tan!

hahaha… luckily he doesn’t read my blog.

my new year resolutions!

1. give more tuitions and save more money to go for a decent grad trip!

2. attain a second upper and safely get into MAS

3. more quality time with family

4. work towards a better skin complexion

5. totally cure my monthly torture (if i fail, im gonna take mc every month?! it would be crazy)

6. live a more balanced life, sufficient sleep, exercise & healthy diet

8. build and maintain friendships with the precious ppl

okay, work hard!

it’s going to be the last semester in university. time to enjoy the very last bit of mugging, dressing up in sloppy attire and waking up late!

still, to get over exams and have an enjoyable holiday before facing the brutal reality of my results, i’ve been packing my the past few days with fooooood and fun! yay, first up is the thai food with jeffrey!

Lerk Thai’s food was nice, but the prices arent as cheap as they used to be. we really miss the cheapcheaporeadi thai food in bkk, when we eat till the fullest and paid a meagre $20?

heh-heh, and all my shopping loots have alr arrived! worn some of them out that day! the dress from mds was freaking cheap, $19 inclusive of shipping! SALESSSS! haha and of course i love the wedges which i bought online too! the old pairs of wedges i have were spoilt cause i left them lonely for too long. (a great excuse to buy a new pair!)

so ive spent 1.5 days with jeff, satisfying our craving for gongcha and shiling stuff. time to get down to plan our hk trip soon!

then on the eve of christmas eve, we had a interesting gathering at tiffany’s place. interesting games which made us know each other better (i believe!) very fun!

and i spent christmas eve and the first few hours of christmas with cheryl and friends (to be exact, jason, cy, gabriel, kelvin, carmen!)

it was a long day, starting with a ‘picnic’ at marina barrage, watching performance at fullerton hotel, dinner at cck blk 302 (my fave) and finally a HTHT session at gabriel’s place!  cant wait for the superb photos from cheryl’s dslr!

with these, ive been enjoying my post exams days but i know these wouldnt last long. it’s time to start tuitions and the sianmax fyp ):

i feel so bad for making him wait for an hour when i was having a one hour haircut.

i feel like a bimbo when i made him wait for me when im trying the tops and he was soooo bored that he started to dig out his phone to play poker.

i feel so treasured when he brought me back to our current fav place for drinks.

i feel so much better after we had our almost weekly HTHT session together.

but nothing beats the most shocking and sweetest thing that happened today,

he randomly, suddenly, bought me my fav meji chocs!

this is the one…. ( i found the pics from google images)

the moment he took the chocs out from his bag…………………………… i was hoping that it was meant for me! and indeed it was! it’s like something that always happen in dramas can actually happen in real life!  the main lead who always play-hard-to-get can actually be very nice!

i know it’s so cliche but… this kind of small surprises on normal days just nv fail to make a girl happy ma! or maybe i’m really too easily satisfied? but……………. this is just soooo my-definition-of-sweet.

i must remember today.

tonight, im taking a break.

(:

of course, im extremely happy that i get to go to the places i like even though it wasnt my bday, the benefits of being the planner.

tadaaa… nice pics with the Boil-friend.

back to daily life, the super packed and busy life. i’m actually feeling v bad typing this blog entry now, bcos i know i could have done more meaningful things than this. but i just need to type this feeling down before i forget abt it and revert to the useless old me.

i finally spoke up in today’s TWF class, smth i wanted to try since forever. i did it today, when i chose not to care about the negatives, i managed to do it. and i didnt regret, the feeling was good especially when i finally know the ans i’ve been seeking and the fact that i’ve conquered the fear or rather the awkwardness that i fear. other than possibly looking unprepared and dumb, i guess it feels good to finally walk out of the comfort zone.

ive been feeling like a changed person recently, and i know i have changed. in a better way, i supposed. with clearer goals, life seems more organized and in order. i want to anticipate my future, not just in the materialistic sense but also to derive  the sense of achievement/satisfaction from doing something i want, something i feel confident to share with others, something that makes me feel good. depending solely on gpa wouldnt work, i know it clearer than anyone else. i dont mind going the extra mile to achieve what i ultimately want.

it might not be that hard, if i start now. (i always console myself, attempting to be optimistic)

it’s late, but hopefully not too late. (and here’s another one)

盘旋在你看不见的高空里

多的是 你不知道的事

…

of course not all the eight months are spent happily, there are small ridiculous quarrels now and then but i guess we managed to resolve it and will hopefully continue to.

this man is wonderful, powerful and someone i definitely can’t live without. haha,  i know it so well when even having him preparing leftover pizzas for breakfast can make me so happy…

time for bed, dreading tomorrow’s 307 seminar but looking forward to the pizzasss breakfast (: