ive finally decided to spend manymany vain money on Polaroids for once bcos they were just too big and unique, i thought i should have keep some for memories’ sake so i can show my grandchildren, grandgrandchildren, etc next time. hah…
of course, im extremely happy that i get to go to the places i like even though it wasnt my bday, the benefits of being the planner.
tadaaa… nice pics with the Boil-friend.
back to daily life, the super packed and busy life. i’m actually feeling v bad typing this blog entry now, bcos i know i could have done more meaningful things than this. but i just need to type this feeling down before i forget abt it and revert to the useless old me.
i finally spoke up in today’s TWF class, smth i wanted to try since forever. i did it today, when i chose not to care about the negatives, i managed to do it. and i didnt regret, the feeling was good especially when i finally know the ans i’ve been seeking and the fact that i’ve conquered the fear or rather the awkwardness that i fear. other than possibly looking unprepared and dumb, i guess it feels good to finally walk out of the comfort zone.
ive been feeling like a changed person recently, and i know i have changed. in a better way, i supposed. with clearer goals, life seems more organized and in order. i want to anticipate my future, not just in the materialistic sense but also to derive the sense of achievement/satisfaction from doing something i want, something i feel confident to share with others, something that makes me feel good. depending solely on gpa wouldnt work, i know it clearer than anyone else. i dont mind going the extra mile to achieve what i ultimately want.
it might not be that hard, if i start now. (i always console myself, attempting to be optimistic)
it’s late, but hopefully not too late. (and here’s another one)
